This week i have my finals, and tomorrow i've got a psychology exam. I have to study about 72 pages + i have to write an essay + i have to read 355 pages until friday and have to write an essay about it. i'm fucked.
Man i hate that woman[psychology teacher]!bitch~!!..She's making everyone hate psychology, she has real issues.
And today i had geometry exam, it was awesome! the whole class cheated...i think i'm going to get a 90!! woaah!im happy...because i might fail this year....oh well
And i'm pissed at bader, that fag!..ugh he's so childish..man he sent me a SHIT..
i mean how old is he?? 11?12?? He thinks he's soo awesome. Bastard.
I was going to send a letter to Kadie and Aishah for the 1 year 6 months thingy...but i couldn't.
I'm sad..i just don't know what to write...
What can anyone write?
I just feel like im abandoned...everything's going bad and bad and bad...
I hated the new year too...i don't want to celebrate it anymore, it has no meaning for me.
Israel krap was already pissing off...that nation is doomed dude!
And everyone around me is crazy. I duno what's happening.
I duno what's happening to me.
[[[i promise you with warm salt air]]]
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Today we [Mina, Merwie, Cansu, and Ezgi] went to opera in Resim ve Heykel Museum.
It was the most worst, ugly, and meaningless thing i ever experienced. No one should be that mean to themselves and watch an opera. Okay, their voices are awesome. Buut! NO! i shall never see an opera again. It's pure torture. I slept in the first part, i listened to music in the second part. There were too many french in the place. Too many that it got a bit disturbing. And sadly there was this hot dude, he saw me when i was stuffing my mouth with cookies. It was embarassing. Very embarassing. Anyways, I got very happy when i talked to Andrei, because he said: Andrei says: she kind of reminds me of u ...kidsgetlaid... [ you got a choice, you have a voice ] says: why?she doesnt look fat Andrei says: haha no...i mean shes funny n...we always hang out n smoke n... Andrei says: u kno..shes a gud fren  Ndrei and InaHehe...I am happy=]]] Also, Mehmet called me today. He was okay, we talked for an hour or so. I'm going to meditate, so i can see the voices around me. At least that's what Mehmet told me. He's going to get me a leaf from Artvin, if he doesn't forget [hahha]. Anywho! The day we ditched.     When i came to school, Sercan and Ilkim grabbed me and took me to the ~stairs~ [smoking place of HOTAL]. We were ditching. We waited for Cansu for an hour, because of that bitch we freezed our ass off!! Like the cold wasn't enough, we had to suffer Ozge's talk about Munci. After Cansu, we waited for Erman too. Hehehe and we ran away from Ozge. It was very fun.=]]] We had a breakfast and blah blah blah... Then all of us went to Meclis Park. First Sercan stepped on a dog shit, then he sat on the shit. Oh well, he was really furious. After 30 mins, Cansu stepped on the dogshit, she took her converse off and washed it..and blah blah blah. Erman, Ilkim and I had a good laugh. Until, some dude thought that we were some kind of a kid porn. Also, this small guy stole our coke and cookies. I got sad. Yeah, my life is full of adventures....=]] hehehe And.......My Friends......  this is me  Ilkim and Cansu  Cansu Sercan and Mina
Today, school started again. It was hard to get adaptated after the eid.
Afterschool, Tolga was acting weird. I think he's sad, but he wouldn't tell me what's wrong. And.......i just heard that Mehmet's brother died. First i thought he was a soldier. [RIP MARTYRS] But I didn't want to ask him. I didn't want to know maybe. I had no idea what to tell him or how to console him. He is so miserable. He didn't deserve this. He didn't, no one does. He's just so full of life, full of happiness. He loves humans. I won't be able to stand to see him broken. I'm sorry Mehmet. Dead ones leave behind so much pain, so much grieve. It's frightening. I just told Mehmet, that i love him. He said I love you too Mina, and thanks. I don't know, what i'll do in the funeral. Do i have to act strong, or just cry? Yes, I'll cry. This made me wonder. How much time I have in this life? I should live my life. Not let anyone live my life for me. ~Afterall; you should just live~ How much time people i love have? Did i ever told them or showed them how much they mean to me, how much i love them? I hope until my last breath, I won't stop hoping and dreaming. [In my funeral, I don't want anyone wearing black.] I love you Mehmet.  Mehmet<3 it's times like these you learn to live again. it's times like these you give and give again. it's times like these you learn to love again.  merwie.mina.mehmet.baris.serhat mehmet.serhat.mina.deniz.barisYes..these are my summer friends... And yes...i'm too lazy to write...i wonder how kadie and aishah can write so much and so regularly.i don't even know how to use this blogspot thing. Anyways, i went to Bodrum..and now i'm back. well it's been a week but still. I'm really depressed i got school tomorrow, and i don't want to go, i feel so sad. i'm going to wake up at 8.20, meet Ebru and Ozge abla at 8.30, then drop Ebru to her school probably stay with her for 15 mins, then i have to walk to my school, attend the morning ceremony.ugh this is krap. i changed my section, and i hate the dudes inside...they piss me off...they are annoying. But Cansu said that i'm going to be good friends with them, i doubt it tho. I'm fasting, and i have no idea how i'm going to get through tomorrow without smoking, because i know that i'm going to get really frustrated. I miss Serhat Mehmet, and Deniz. They are awesome friends. Deniz lives in Istanbul tho. Mehmet and Serhat are going to come to Ankara tomorrow or the day after. I'm happy that i'm going to see them again. They said that they're going to pick me up from my school. hahahaha i just read what i wrote i don't make sense at all. My mom's not talking to me because i had a fight with my grandma. she left my house and my mom cried and said ~because of you mina my own mom left my house~...both of them aren't talking to me and i'm angry. Because i can't find anything inthis damned house, the only person who can actually find anything is my mom, and she's not finding stuff for me anymore, therefore i get pissed.ugh.Parents and Grandmas. Such a pain in the ass. Today i was talking to Mehmet and Serhat on the phone and my credit finished, and my mom wouldn't give me money to go buy credit. She's so mean. I hope she will be like normal again soon, because currently i can't stand her. Oh cruel life, it's hard to be a teen these days. Everything's so fucked. And i think i miss Kadie, Aishah, and Andrei. These days i'm into this song Imago by Pain of Salvation. Serhat told me this song, and i find it beautiful. Spring came with awakening, came with innocense and joy ByeBye <3 it was like 1.30ish i went to the park to smoke, then there was this old dude sitting on the bench.i sat next to him, he was a really nuice dude.we started talking.he said that he've been to loads of fights, and now he's very upset because his grandson is joining the army, and he's posted to Sirnak.he cried, i got sad. anyways then we talked for an hour, after he left i stayed for 10 mins.when i came home merve and gonca teyze were there. i got so fucking happy.. merve got accepted to the Dubai uni,she's going to study architecture,she said that ad changed alot + she always missed us..hehe [ i was smiling so widely and my mouth stil hurts now] she's going to get her driving license and she has to do this maths kind of exam. anyways we fooled around with sena and irem alot, then she said that she wants to smoke midwakh hahahahahah.so we went down and smoked, she said because of u mina i'm going to be an addict.yeah so this is what happend...i'm going to miss her so much..but she'll come back maybe in winter break, but definetly in summer holidays. papa said that merwie and me might go to ad for a visit and stay in her house =]]  [wah~we shall miss her]  anyways, after she left ebru, merve abla, ozge abla, merwie, feyza and i went to panora to STARBUCKS!~..hahaha i got happy. because of some behaviors we got embarassed.  Subject: promise me let's never get older~  Hey kids!i'm going to tell a little story about How I met My Best Friends well we all met in Abu Dhabi.then we loved each other.afterwards we shared too much, that it even scared us all.but it was oki, because we knew that this kind of friendship would only knock our door once in our life. then we made this thing called ~KIDSGETLAID~. now we are all bound to this little group we have. and we refer to ourselves as kidsgetlaid of course.we got separated from each other by evil forces on june 21,2007.we all knew that this day would come, but it just happen to come a little too earlier than we all thought.even though we prepared ourselves for that damned day, it was real tough. we're like umm 1000000000000000 miles away from each other but we promised that no matter what we would see each other one day.we can only chat, call or text if we have credit [which is something we never had and have] but that's kind of enough for us.we're still a little disturbingly close. i assume that we will always be because i know that our story will finish with a ~And They Lived Happily Ever After~ Promise me..let's never ever get older! And let's not forget that Family Can Be Whatever You Want It To Be. <3 [if i have gone into details...i could have wrote a 1000 pages about kidsgetlaid] We've shared some big times in the past but i always knew that it couldnt last you've always been my bestfriend but i guess some good things must endas much as i don't want to it's time to move on i'll miss you more than you'll ever know it's time to leave my past(and i go home)to another wasted tomorrow tonight i'll go to sleep just to escape and try to kill this feeling that i just can't shake when morning comes back the feeling will to i've done all i can now what else am i supposed to do? as much as i don't want to it's time to move on i'll miss you more than you'll ever know it's time to leave my past[and i go home]to another wasted tomorrow la la la...you'll go right i'll go left sometimes we dont agree but thats ok cuz in the end we're still brothers [sisters] you and me we'll go to steak-and-shake sometimes cuz we hang out everynight and we do the same old thing sometimeswe fool around too much cuz we are a frisky bunch we get in trouble every day hey, hey, (hey) ho (ho) straight through the heart im there for you and i know you're there for me give me a high five hey, hey, ho, ho friends till the end cant you see thats the way its gotta be you're the money and the bombbut i talk about your mom even though it isnt right go to mikeys play some games stay up till the break of day maybe get into a fight even though we're hittin 20 and we havent yet matured ya know i think its kinda funny that we're all a bunch of nerds go! i love yall! i always have well cant you see thats the way its gotta be well cant you see God has destined us to..be la de da la de da la de da la de <3
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